The realisation slowly dawned for me well, maybe it was 1997. How can I be so unsure you may ask, well I'll tell you. For some reason which I'll never know, whilst living a very mundane life with my friends & sharing flats with alcohol and so on and so forth. I signed up for an A level in film studies at Sheffield Uni...What are you crazy!
I was, I attended one day a week without fail, couldn't spell, tried to write an essay, non of my family knew what an essay was!
What I was good at, was participating in the class after the tutor had shown a film, or film clip. And I just fell in love with French New Wave Cinema! Not conforming to the Hollywood Narrative!
What happened then did you say!?
One of the first interviews I ever did when I started Phacemag was with Dave Robinson, the founder of Stiff Records.
To understand this fully we have to go back a few years to a time when I worked at Corsica Studio's, and one day a young guy walked in named Jack with a proposal for a club night called Vagabondz. I was involved in the event meetings, I had been looking after the bar for Adrian & Amanda since before Corsica was even liscenced.
It was touch and go but sheer confidence and front secured a Vagabondz club night - all set!
The thing about Corsica Studios in those days was that it wasn't the easiest venue to fill, as a promoter. However from memory Vagabondz had a regular monthly night for a while, during which time I had made friends with Jack Robinson, and found out his Dad was Dave Robinson.
Jack must have sensed my respect, fascination, call it what you will for his dad, the man behind a label I considered incredibly important in respect of British music culture.
On one Vagabondz night Dave Robinson appeared at the bar. When you meet someone you admire, don't be frightened of being genuine, genuine keeps the world hanging on in hope.
And years later it got me talking to Dave Robinson for Phacemag, listening to his every word about a part of British music history that he made!
What am I saying here? I'm not sure because you can't rely on who you know to move forward. What I think I'm saying is what happened. Dave Robinson remembered me when I asked for an interview because he remembered me being genuinely interested in his story.
Ok, I'm determined to use this space called blog, which for now is called just this. We'll go into that later but for now it's a catch up with what Phacemag has been doing.
If I've learnt anything in the 3 years I've spent trying to create Phacemag it's this. Chasing things is ok, so is being persistent.
Look before I go any further, I'm going to do this right now because it's a real problem, I can't spell, I can't punctuate very well either. I'm left handed and although I can read brilliantly, at school I would spell luap for Paul but the p would face left. I still can't spell; and! I can't seem to learn to spell, which is the most frustrating thing for me and my wife Jo. Mostly for her...
That said please ignore anything that slips through my new - (second hand) Mac Book's spelling defence system.
Ok that out of the way, well just another thing...
I can do there now, and their is belonging to, but the rest is incredably confusing. As are apostraphys - I typed in apostrophys just now, twice, how I thought it was spelt. Both wrong. So now I've lost interest in how to spell '' that was a good example on the spelling issue.
Their going to have a great time - Anyone? Of course I know I can't write this, but I don't learn and still write it!
I have above average IQ got a BA Degree at Uni in 2001/2 but I can't learn this.
Oh my, when I first started Phacemag on an iPad my lovely friend Andy Rispoli gave to me, it was terrible. Bless Andy, he knew I had an idea and determination to do this but I was potless, Andy Died in October last year, he was only 51, without his hand up, more than once, I don't know what I would be doing.
Back to my point, which seems irrelevant now. Good time to adjourn - pp x
Well that was mad! whilst looking up if Rispoli had 2 L's google found a mix cloud account that Andy had! So I did a Phacemag page for him - it's on front page - quote below - more soon - pp x
Struggling to deal with Boney's death today, which was a year ago in October. Something still doesn't add up, make sense. Below is something I wrote earlier on the Phacemag Blog page which I'm trying to use. You won't believe it, but typing in Rispoli to check the spelling (can't spell see blog) found this on Mixcloud! I couldn't believe it, the 2 mix's on it is a new piece of him that I hadn't got. Jo might well know about this, but it came at the right time for me today. Cheers Boney - more soon x
Ok - that was good, put a couple of Boney (Andy Rispoli) things on my youtube channel that I'll get around to utilising one day...
Back to my point which is very important, Chasing things is ok, being persistent is ok. But getting sent things is where you want to be. When I started getting sent things it was... Jo! I'm getting sent things!
Jo said :
"Your being sent things because you chased things and your persistent to the point of obsessive!" ...so forget everything I said...
Going through a bad time in life is going through life. I consider myself fortunate because when I was 29 I think, I went through something that was so life threatening, by getting through it I would be through it and onwards & upwards...to a point of course...
Yes, my marriage was not a success. Lots of reasons which I might talk about later, but what happened, the outcome of me losing my wife, my house & mortgage and will to live was extraordinary!
I call it my Prozac & vodka foreword to my life. Not wanting to wake up in the morning was the best thing that ever happened to me!
The house which we'd paid £29,000 for was sold for £33,0000 or such or such like on the party of the first part. So I went for a drink, for 2 years.
From the moment you start something like Phacemag you are in the dark. When you discover, (well this is my experience) how to begin structuring your Magazine pages - (don't call me Blog!) you have to make a decision not to compromise on 2 fronts. Content and style.
Don't expect any help or friendly advice, what your waiting for (everything is relative) is the moment, by mistake, you realise you can link a YouTube video into your page...However, you can't forget the subject - the reason your linking a YouTube video in, in the first why didn't they tell me place!